Let’s explore altered states consciousness (psychology) to get a handle on Ego Intellectexactly what this means. I have researched the topic with due diligence to help get it clear in my mind as to how we might have a conversation that is easily understood by all. Shall we make a start?


This time I have researched altered, altruistic, transcend which lead me to benevolent.  My intention with the Thesaurus Task is to find a way, words, that are more relateable, layman’s language to help not only me, but others to get a grip on what we are discussing. For this reason I will give only Synonyms of altered, altruistic and transcend and you will see how I chose benevolent to best describe, in layman’s language the altered state.

ALTERED Synonyms: transformed, adapted, reformed, remodeled, reshape
ALTRULISTIC Synonyms: magnanimous, Robin Hood, all heart, BENEVOLENT, big-hearted, generous, humane, kind, self-sacrificing etc.                                                                                                                                                           TRANSCEND Synonyms: transform, outshine, rise above

BENEVOLENT Synonyms: all heart, big-hearted, bounteous, bountiful, helpful, kindhearted, magnanimous, generous Antonyms: mean, unkind, selfish, merciless, greedy etc.

The words that resonate with me are bountiful, big-hearted, helpful and generous. Which words would you pick?


An altered state of mind (consciousness) is a place in our being where our egos are not present. I believe when we were in the womb and first born we were in this altered state of mind. Our hearts beat for us, our breathing is a free thing, uncontrolled by us, our bodies formed and grew in the womb all by themselves. We are perfection, have no need to think, say or do anything and we grow, and grow until we pop out into the world. All the time we are in the womb we are just being, just being ourselves. We don’t need to do anything except BE. This state of consciousness is the perfect space to be. At this time we have knowledge of what is happening, we are WITNESSING ourselves in this perfect space.

From this discovery I believe, as we were born in this natural state, we were Altered Statesdestined to live in this state where we are directly connected with our source and anything we need is given. Directly after we are born everything we need is given (breast milk, bathing, cuddles, kisses, love, clean bottoms, shelter, food and so on). This is a state of bliss, our true nature. Think of your pets and how their love is unconditional and they live in a state of BEING.

The only difference for humanity is we were given the capacity to think. Our egos were fed incorrect information at a young age until finally our egos take over and begin to take charge of our lives. They are so audacious that they believe they know what is best for us, and that results in a life of surviving, not thriving. Our egos are so loud, beating their drums with such authority and force they overtake and mask the power that we were born with. When we only use (as most of us do) our ego intellect to figure out our problems, we often run into a brick wall and get stuck, can’t find a way out of our problem. We continue to batter our heads against the wall and our problems seem to become more. The more we dig, the deeper our hole gets and we don’t see the ladder right there in front of us. By telling the ego to take a hike, we are left with our true power and it will see the ladder and up we go. Does this make sense?

So would it be true to say our true nature, this state of bliss, where we witness life, not control our lives, is what we now (in moderndays) call an altered state. It is as natural as day and night and we all still have it waiting there patiently for us to return.


When we finally quieten down and free ourselves of our egos, begin to witnessState of Bliss life, return to our true nature, we are living, or sending out a higher vibration that enables us to ask and we will receive. We can let go and Let Universe/God. We can have anything we desire because we are creators, a chip of the old block, so to speak, an image of the ultimate creator. We were born in this state, we only need to get back there by dispensing with our egos. We really are one with the creator.

Have you ever let the music dance you, rather than you dance to the music. We let our bodies do what they want to do rather than us controlling what our bodies do. When we allow our bodies to move us, it is called a sensation, being synchronised with our senses and in fact is living on a higher vibration.

When we are living on a higher vibration we naturally become benevolent. We already are big hearted, kinder, thoughtful of others, helpful to others,  loving, generous,  unconditional etc. 


Home, being the state we were born in. Today we call this an altered state of consciousness. I have experienced being in an altered state, and when in this state of nature it transcends all else. Material possessions seemed so petty, albeit it necessary for our earthly journey, but unimportant in the grand scheme of things. I call it home and being home again is a familiar feeling, a familiar space with nothing to be afraid of.


Wait for it, this is a little bit of craziness (or is it?) I simply wrote a letter to the universe, stating my current dire circumstance, how afraid I was. I let my ego intellect throw up, how bad the situation is, how desperate and shameful I felt and much more. Bring you senses with you and give your ego free rein to throw up all the disastrous, horrible things it can find. Then I moved on to what I wanted to make the problem go away. There is a little more to this technique which I will not disclose as the technique belongs to MELODY FLETCHER. I introduced you to her in my last post called Techniques Improving Self Awareness. To continue with her technique follow this link melody   There she will ask you to download a free ebook, “Manifest in 20 minutes”. After you do this her technique will appear. This is up to you, however I urge you to connect with her site.


Once again it has been lovely chatting to you (albeit causing me to put myself out there in a vulnerable state), this is an honest diary of my experiences and my opinions. Feel free to leave a comment and contribute to the conversation as we go on our way, being helpful to others and moving ever closer to freedom.

Cheers now,




Self awareness will bring you to knowing your purpose life and a future of abundance. I believe we cannot get started towards our purpose life and all of life’s riches without becoming an expert in self awareness. Let’s check it out shall we?


Self awareness is absolutely essential to begin our journey to being the best we can be. I suggest, if you haven’t already, please read my previous post I AM SMALL VOICE to get an idea of how dominant and controlling our egos are. In the main most people (and this used to include me) are not aware that their lives are being dictated and controlled by our egos. Just do a quick mental check on your life now (finances, health, relationships, happiness, community) and notice how short of the mark it is to what you really want and desire. This result is and always will be the life our egos will provide. Our egos are geared/wired with false information learned from childhood onward and don’t know any other way.


Awareness Synonyms: alertness, attention, consciousness, perception, recognition, aliveness, attentiveness, cognizance, keenness, mindfulness Awareness Antonyms: disregard, ignorance, neglect, misunderstanding, unfamiliarity, insensitivity, unconsciousness

The synonyms that particularly resonate with me are alertness, attentiveness, keenness which for me are action words and suggest I stand up and pay attention, exercise my wit and preparedness. Which would you choose?

We have taken the first wobbly step once we become aware of our ego and how and from where it is geared/wired. Now we need to shed the first skin (just like a snake) to learn how to reconnect with our senses, our intuition and our inner voice. The action words I have chosen have already brought my senses into play. I feel the sensation of being on guard and ready. To become acutely aware we need to have sharp sensations that bring our six senses to life (smell, touch, thought, taste, sound, sight).

Once our senses are awakened we start to have sensations e.g. hair standing up on the back of our necks, walking over someone’s grave, uplifted by a song, toe in the water, brilliant colours in a sunset, taste of a lemon, smell of an orange. These sensations are often so strong and connected we can make our saliva start running when we imagine sucking a lemon.

Would it be true for me to say that once our senses are heightened our ego has disappeared for a bit. We are experiencing/living life in the moment not just going through the motions as our ego does. My ego can think about sucking a lemon in a flat way like “Oh yeah, you want to suck a lemon go for it you idiot, you know what will happen” and not be engaged with any of my senses therefore it is not a sensation. I noticed that my ego immediately wants to protect me, dictate to me and control me. And that’s the life my, ego will bring me. No adventure, no risk, etc. “Let’s just do what we always do. I know best”. The strong sensations I have described will always awaken our senses because they unconsciously trigger our senses whether we are still and calm or racing around like a mad thing.


Let’s look at lunch on a blanket in a park. In the fast lane (completely unaware) we can attend, eat, drink, have a conversation in which we have no idea whether we were being positive or negative, yell at the kids or the dog, even worse, at each other and leave.

If we are consciously aware, in a calm relaxed state we can attend, engage our senses, notice the bird calls, the dog chasing the ball, the formation of a beautiful tree, the smell of some nearby flowers, how hot or cold it is, the smell of the salt from the sea if we are near the sea, compliment the chef, whisper I love you, notice how subtle the herbs are in the sausage, the colour of the fruits and their individual tastes, the sweetness of the pavlova, play with the dog or the children and notice their joy, laughter, we could hold hands, a cuddle or sneak a kiss etc. etc. The latter way is conscious awareness, experiencing life, living in the moment, every day a new experience, a new adventure.

I know which lunch I would rather be at! What about you?


In order to live a self aware life and reap the riches we need to train ourselves to notice all things and bring our senses out to play. There are many simple ways to get this process underway.

Bring a calm, relaxed attitude with you when having a shower, notice the water running down your back, the warmth or coolness of the water, pay attention to your feet and notice how lost you would be without them, same with your eyes and ears, hands, arms, fingers, legs, notice your heart beats for you, your lungs breathe for you, notice your perfection and wonder where it came from, bless the creator whoever you feel that might be, notice your body and whether perhaps you feel like gently swaying as you sing or hum a favorite song. Bring your senses with you everywhere you go.

Ladies, when you are doing the ironing, notice the fabrics, the colours, the feel of the materials, the wonder of the iron and how convenient it is, the ease it brings to your life, notice if you are slumped or standing up straight, perhaps you are drinking a coffee, bring your senses to the taste, colour etc. etc.

Men, when you are wielding the chain saw in a relaxed and calm manner notice the smell of the petrol/oil, the sound of the motor, is it running smoothly or does it need a bit of maintenance, the ease in which it does the job so you don’t have to swing an axe, notice your muscles responding automatically, your balance on your feet, the smell of whatever you are cutting up etc. etc.

This is the time to introduce everyone to Melody Fletcher.  Melody is a fan of the Law Of Attraction, has worked with a Sharman, is able to enter an altered state which she calls “Translating Energy” and is not a trance. While in this state she is completely aware of what’s happening.  I was drawn to her work and I trust it.  Melody writes in a humorous way and is a fun teaching read.

When we repeatedly bring our senses into play, our egos are quietened. We then need to bring this conscious awareness to every thing we say, think and do. Choose your words carefully, choose positive words. I use the word challenge to replace many negatives e.g. this chore is so hard flipped to this chore is a bit of a challenge. It is very possible your speech will slow down because you are choosing words not running on automatic ego words. Many people speak so fast I swear they have little idea of the actual words they uttered. This used to apply to me.


As you are teaching yourself conscious awareness, share with your children what you are doing. Believe me if they grow up already habitually self aware you will have given them the edge to early abundance in their lives. The more conscious we are of truly experiencing life with our senses, speaking with positive authority, doing consciously positive things and thinking positively, we automatically become kinder more grateful, more helpful to others and we raise our vibration higher and higher and guess what we attract all of life’s riches. Wealth, Health, Joy, Love and the most powerful of all, laughter.


It’s been lovely chatting with you again and does me good to put my learnings in writing. It reinforces and reminds me of what I am doing. Please feel free to leave your comments and contributions as we learn together. I do urge you to decide to embrace your senses as I truly believe it is a speedy way to become the best person we can and reap the rewards. Cheers now, Jill


The alter ego life game and the small voice. We talked a bit about the wee small voice in my previous post Create Your Life Games and I was inspired to find out more and how to connect with it. Let’s continue on my journey.


This exploration has taken me into the Spiritual Arena. My first reaction was “Oh no where is this leading me?”.  I was right in my comfort zone with previous posts but this one I was finding a bit scary and challenging. Hang with me guys, you will like what I found and it is an interesting read! I am back in my comfort zone and you will be too.

To habitually connect with our wee voice, our egos have to surrender in orderSurrender Flag for us to obey this voice and be blessed with life’s riches. Eeeeek! SURRENDER AND OBEY are strong words that I positively don’t resonate with and immediately brought up religious connotations which quite freaked me out. Don’t get me wrong, I am a Christian and happily live my life with Christian values however I do not go to Church and I am not in the habit of Bible Study etc.

I was committed to researching this arena to find my way. I typed in Google search, surrender and obey, and up came the heavy “Bible preaching” stuff. Whoa, I said to myself. Nevertheless I read.

I am a mischievous, impish soul that loves a bubble or two and a few cigarettes each day and I enjoy these traits in my personality and no way was I about to give them up. Being a “goodie two shoes” is not in my vocabulary let alone in my heart.

Something told me to go check out the Buddha style teaching and the first site I found was this amazing site called Tiny Buddha. Here I listened to an interview with Dr Amy Johnson (who was a control freak, is not anymore) and gave wonderful examples of how to understand our egos and surrender them to our wee small voice!  I hit the jackpot.

This is the time to introduce to Dr Amy Johnson PHD. And I quote “Dr Amy is a psychologist, coach, author and speaker who shares a groundbreaking new approach that helps people find true, lasting freedom from unwanted habits via insight rather than willpower. Johnson has been a regularly featured expert on The Steve Harvey Show and, as well as in The Wall Street Journal and Self magazine. See more at”.


Our egos are used to being in control and they are linked to survival, basic survival at that.  No joy here, all grind, grind, grind, fight, fight, fight, work, work, work to keep control of our pitiful daily lives. (You know what I mean, pay the bills, eat, shelter, exercise for health, and the little joy that we accomplish is from our dedication (more work) to high achievement for ourselves or our kids, hitting the top, kicking the winning goal etc. and we have a display cabinet full of our trophies! These moments are celebratory, deserved and even joyous. How long does this exaltation last? In my opinion, not very long and it’s back to the grind. This is the life our egos will bring us.  Having said that, I believe there is a place for our ego to help us through the mundane tasks in our day like “I am going to do the washing today, or I am going food shopping before picking up little Johnny”.  However, we need to pamper ourselves and our souls with quiet time every day to connect with moment by moment to discover possibilities and opportunities .

Our egos are loud, relentlessly beating their drums, drowning out all else, demanding obedience, dominant, demanding to be heard and are the loudest voice in our minds. Our egos try to control everything and convince us to be afraid of what might happen if we don’t obey them. We are rooted in fear if we don’t do as they dictate.  Ego control is attached to what it believes is best for us and in obeying our egos we are not open to all the wonderful opportunities and possibilities that could be there for us. Our egos make us blind, they are so attached to habitual outcomes. We need to become HIGHLY AWARE OF WHEN WE ARE IN ‘EGO CONTROL MODE’.


Pretty well it is as simple as stopping fighting, hanging on for dear life to our ego. Our egos fill our brains with a frenzied, noisy, chaotic, panicky, anxious, under the thumb etc. energy and consequently there is no room for our small voice. Surely it is easy to recognise this noisy EGO CONTROL MODE therefore we can teach ourselves to let it go. I mean truly, I don’t need all this noise and demands going on in my head when I know it will take me to the same habitual outcomes.

When we surrender all that chaos, all that is left is a peaceful, quietened, and relaxed state of mind and you guessed it, what shines through is our small voice. When in this state of mind think like this: “I don’t know what I’m going to do today and let it happen moment by moment”. Let things happen not make things happen. This voice is open to all possibilities and opportunities and will pop them up for us to choose and follow. We do need to take action on our chosen path and if we continue to keep our egos out of the picture somehow we are led by the hand to the next step and the next step. I know this to be a fact because it happens to me a lot. I was led to looking up Tiny Buddha website to get my answers.


In the process of researching and learning I decided to replace:   SURRENDER, OBEY, BE BLESSED with LET GO, FOLLOW, BE BLESSED.


May I take the liberty to remind you the easiest and quickest way to hear your small voice is by communing with nature in some way shape of form. This is how I do it. I sit on a rock, climb and sit in a tree, use my senses, smell, touch, hear etc. If for some reason it is not possible to go for a stroll, simply pick up a flower, a rock, a leaf, your cat and look with focus, be totally absorbed with an attitude of wonderment at the perfection you see and believe me you will connect with your small voice. Talk out loud or within to your voice, e.g. “what do I need to do next? I don’t know what to do? Guide me, help me” be still and quiet and you will get your answers. Maybe not there and then but when you are quietly washing the dishes, or feeling the water on your body when taking a shower. At a time when you are still and silent. There is little point in sitting on a rock and obsessing in your mind about how you are going to teach little Johnny to pick up his toys or make his bed. This behaviour is communing with your ego.


I believe once we are strongly connected to our wee small voice we will be shown our destiny, our Life’s Purpose.  How about that!!!  I now know I am destined to write these blogs and share what I have learned.  As Dr Wayne Dyer said: “Don’t die with your music still in you”.

I have thoroughly enjoyed researching, exploring, growing and sharing my journey with you. Please join the conversation and contribute as we learn together. Once more I am not an expert and my writings are my opinion and if they help you in any way, I am grateful. I am so happy I was shown Dr Amy Johnson as I am now comfortable with Surrender, Obey Be Blessed even though I like the gentle Let go, Follow Be Blessed! Cheers now, Jill


We are about to explore things that rhyme with life. Is life ours to create however we desire? The answer is yes, however we do need to shed our skins, just like a snake. Another analogy, is to peel off the layers of an onion. Let’s make a start.


How do we find our passionate life purpose. I read somewhere recently that when people are on their death beds they often express they wish they had found their life purpose. I found this intriguing as we all seem to know that we were born with a life purpose. Our egos develop with incorrect information being fed to us from a very young age and take charge of us. We lose our power and our true identity and become lost in a world of egotism. We journey along ignoring the little voice that is leading us to our life purpose. Basically it gets drowned out.


Let’s explore and try to get our heads around the truth. Believe me it can be a bit of a “reach” for us all and that includes me. I researched Dr Wayne Dyer and gleaned an understanding of the following information from his teachings. From the time of our inception (that tiny wee speck of life), to our birth everything we need is taken care of from the colour of our eyes to fully functioning organs etc. We had nothing to do but hang about contentedly and let something grow us. Can we begin to perceive that the source taking care of all this is spirit, the Almighty, the true essence of life or the light within us. There are many ways to describe this source and it is responsible for all creation (the planet, the trees, flowers, seas, mountains, flora and fauna, the universe, stars, moon, sun absolutely everything and all is perfection).


Do you agree this level of perfect creation is beyond man and therefore, for me, it is easy to believe in a power greater than ourselves. Immediately I want to know and understand what this power is. We have it within us, as it grew and took care of us in the womb, so where is it now? This power (a voice, or is it intuition) is still there however now drowned out by our egos. Our egos teach us “we are not some divine being” we are what we have and we identify ourselves with our possessions, we value ourselves with what we achieved and strive to get to the top, and while we are working so hard our egos throw in be careful of what people think of you (our reputation) and consequently this new image becomes our identity, or who we think we are. Does this make sense? So how do we reconnect with our source? Big question and I will humbly attempt to explain what seems to have worked, or is working for me.


We are often brought to our knees to wake us up. This has happened to me personally. When we have failed miserably what or where do we turn to? That wee small voice that begins to SHOUT! ” LISTEN, LISTEN, LISTEN! You have tried it your way and failed, now follow me and I will handle everything for you (like I did when you were in the womb)”. At this point in time we have to surrender our egos to reconnect and obey our inner nature, our essence, the light within us.

WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT I hear you ask? Forgive me but you already know what I am talking about. Have you ever asked yourselves “I wonder what my purpose in life is?” Follow this, follow, follow, follow. Read what we can, go out into nature, focus on the perfection, pick up an ant and see the perfection, smell the roses, watch the waterfall and the sunlight sparkling in it, focus on a sunrise, sunset, a bird winging along, the perfection of your pet dog, or cat and the perfection of your own body (your heart beats for you, your breathing, sight, hearing, mobility etc). Really look in a calm peaceful frame of mind and ask questions out loud, or quietly within like “how did this all happen?” Make the realisation that you are perfection too, you are a part of all that is. To do this exercise, I suggest that you are sober, quiet in your mind, peaceful and wear an attitude of wonderment. By doing this you are witnessing the source and the source is in you too. I have found that my inner voice, intuition is at it’s loudest when I am quietened. Ask question after question and you will become connected and get the answers you are looking for.

The person drawn to me to this time is Dr Wayne Dyer internationally renown author and speaker in the fields of self development and spiritual growth. His first book Erroneous Zones, published in 1976 became an international bestseller and launched his career as an author and speaker. He died in 2015. I want to share this beautiful quote from Dr Dyer “Don’t die with your music still in you.” (Meaning of course, your purpose unfilled).


I have found since I faithfully follow my inner voice all that I do leads me to the next step and the next step and the next. Articles about people I need to read about, pop up on my computer when I’m searching for something else and when I read the first one it leads me to another or information I have gleaned becomes my next post subject and so on and so on.

Bear in mind, my website was brought about by sincerely wanting to help others, share and learn from others and personal development has always fascinated me and been my passion.

My website has become my daily diary believe it or not. As I face my demons and grow, enquire, explore and develop, I am sharing it with you. I must be one of the few people whose diaries are so public!. Please be aware I am not an expert, my content is my opinion and if it helps people I am grateful.

Please share with me your comments, experiences and questions. I would love you to join the conversation and contribute to the whole. Many thanks. Cheers now, Jill